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No One Asked, But That's Okay.
These are the movies I consider my top favorite of the year. No one asked, but seldom do people talk to me on here.
1. Lost In Translation
2. Big Fish
3. Pirates of the Carribbean
4. Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
5. Finding Nemo
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With A's forgiveness, I post my review of Big Fish that I just sent her...
Big Fish is incredibly good.
My reviews of movies seem to get shorter and shorter.
The only part I had a problem with was the fact that I found the son to be sort of an insensitive prick of a character, who had these parents who cared so much about him, but he hated his father because he thought tall tales were more interesting than real life.
It was fun and moving, and if a world existed where I had children, I'd try to be that type of father where he wanted to make life more fun and fanciful than it truly was.
I'd also like to find the type of relationship with a woman where time stopped the first time I saw her.
Man. That was a good movie.
I'd recommend it over Return of the King quite honestly.
Make Mine An Addition To Your Addition
I'd like to say that it's a tie between the sorting hat and this art book for Dark Crystal as the best gift. They're all amazing gifts, but these wow me.
And Really, Who Am I To Judge
So, I bit the bullet and headed out to seek some professional help over my emotional quagmire that is my current depression. Enough people (well MF and AH at any rate) have voiced their concern that I thought I should bring my self through the therapy door.
But no meds. I may push for meds. I can't believe that my job is the main source of all my problems. Yes, it's probably a source of the majority of my problems. But my manicness, unwillingness to open up to people, and trust issues probably aren't related to my job. I will say that my unwillingness to do anything creative probably DOES have to do with my job. If I wasn't writing on here, I probably wouldn't be writing at all currently.
But, he told me that:
- I seem to have a decent support circle.
- I am a "caregiver" and that I excel in my own world when I help other people excel in theirs. Before I even told him that I get the most happiness out of making my friends happy, he told me I carry myself as someone who cares about others.
- I need to look for a new job. To the point where he mentioned bringing in a newspaper and we'd look together.
- I should take a class away from Graphic Design. Something that is artistic and creative, but also something I'd' have to work for a good grade.
- That I may have reactionary depression, and doesn't want to suggest meds until he's sure it's not just my job killing me.
I'm not sure about the whole thing. Therapists, and doctors in general, are hard to find a good one. But, I'll give him a few sessions to see what's what. It can't hurt. And at least I have someone who gets paid to listen to me bitch, as opposed to burdening AH and MF with it all.
Christmas Comes But Once A Year
Another Christmas. Another 12 hours of trying to not be bored out of my skull. Christmas, at least at my house, is exciting for about 2 hours between 9 and 11. Wake up. Watch some Disney parade before the B-list stars start performing and open some gifts.
It's about that point that my sister starts passing out the gifts as she keeps a mental note of how many she's getting. As the gifts are passed out, and she gets the "short end of the stick" the complaints start flying. Not real complaints, but snarky, everyone hates me type of complaints.
Ahhh, tradition.
So, I got some fun stuff this year. It was a lot of stuff that people actually thought about which was nice. My favorite gift by far is the reproduction of the sorting hat from Harry Potter. It looks like the damn hat. I'm impressed.
Other fun stuff included some Cat in the Hat plushes and throw blanket. The big ol' box of Two Towers goodness. A scanner/printer to replace the one that Windows XP killed. And a real nice "Art of Dark Crystal" book.
That was all family stuff. AH picked me up Pirates of the Caribbean and Gris Grimly's Wicked Nursery Rhymes, which is amazing. The artwork is top notch, and the rhymes are perfectly evil. NP picked me up Gyo and the best of Free Design.
It's been fun. If not boring.
I was most amazed yesterday, whether he meant it or not, when A's husband called me family. It was just an amazing thing to hear. We had stopped over to give A some baggy shirts and pants (my old fat clothes) along with a plate of cookies. We had some tea, and I promised her we'd go get some Thai at Lemon Grass once the holidays are officially over. As we left he called me family. Warmed my heart. Really. Happiness abounding within me. I've been bragging about it everywhere.
I'm such a sap.
Seeing Big Fish tomorrow. PT and CJ are back in town. MF was supposed to go, but she says she's broke and won't accept my money for the ticket. Upsetting, but I'll see her Sunday most likely. Check out the new pad, which apparently is only suitable for people under 6 feet tall.
Sgubu
I have been instructed by my doctor to consider looking for a new job. While it's common knowledge that I say my job is killing me, now apparently, I have proof. He believes that the source of all my problems is my job. He's gone so far as to tell me to bring a newspaper in the next time I see him, and we'll look for a job together.
It's All In The Music
Super sprode three disc comp CD for A this Christmas season. The entire package is called "Love, You Baby."
Disc 1 - Where Is The Love?
Everyone Deserves Music - Michael Franti & Spearhead
At My Most Beautiful - R.E.M.
When You're Next To Me - Mitch & Mickey
Punk Rock Girl - The Dead Milkmen
Shake Me Baby - Junior Senior
I Believe in a Thing Called Love - The Darkness
Jessica - Adam Green
I'm the Man Who Murdered Love - XTC
(What's So Funny 'Bout) Peace, Love And Understanding - Elvis Costello & The Attractions
Where Is the Love? - Black Eyed Peas & Justin Timberlake
Under Your Spell - Amber Benson
Calling - Leona Naess
We're All In Love - Black Rebel Motorcycle Club
Hey Ya! - Outkast
Let's Stay Together - Al Green
Amsterdam - Guster
That Great Love Sound - The Raveonettes
I Feel Love (with Venus Hum) - Blue Man Group
Sacrifice (From "The Gift") - Christophe Beck
Say Yes - Elliott Smith
Disc 2 - The Most Important Vowel
All You Need Is Love - The Beatles
Come As You Are - Nirvana
Lay All Your Love On Me - Erasure
Birdhouse In Your Soul - They Might Be Giants
Can't Stand Losing You - The Police
Don't Change Your Plans - Ben Folds Five
Bohemian Like You - The Dandy Warhols
Fast As You Can - Fiona Apple
I Want You Back - The Jackson 5
Do You Realize?? - The Flaming Lips
Before You - The Hot Club Of Cowtown
If You're Feeling Sinister - Belle & Sebastian
(You're The) Devil In Disguise - Elvis Presley
Move Your Feet - Junior Senior
Cut Your Hair - Pavement
(I Just) Died In Your Arms - Cutting Crew
Back On Your Side - Chris Isaak
Can't Win For Losing You - Fulks, Robbie
Who Do You Think You Are - Spice Girls
HAVE YOU NEVER BEEN MELLOW - KONAMI
I Melt With You - Modern English
Disc 3 - Baby Love Child
My Baby Just Cares For Me - Ed Norton
Baby Did A Bad Bad Thing - Isaak, Chris
It's Alright, Baby - Komeda
Baby Britain - Elliott Smith
Ohh Baby Baby - The Miracles
Maybe Baby - Buddy Holly & The Crickets
Shake Me Baby - Junior Senior
Saturday's Child - The Monkees
Baby Love Child - Pizzicato Five
Baby You're A Rich Man - The Beatles
The KKK Took My Baby Away - The Ramones
Hey Baby - No Doubt
Child (Inside) - Qkumba Zoo
Step into My Office, Baby - Belle & Sebastian
Baby I Need Your Loving - The Four Tops
Phantom Planet - Somebody's Baby
Real Wild Child - Josie And The Pussycats
Kids In America - Kim Wilde
Baby's coming back - Jellyfish
Bañana Baby (Tomorrow Comes Today) - Gorillaz
Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down) - Nancy Sinatra
That's a lot of damn music!
I Barely Know You.
There are certain things in life that are guaranteed for me.
This story is about one of them.
I attract younger women. I'm not even talking a year or two younger. I cannot explain the problems I've had over my years at the library. From five year olds through high school girls, there is a natural instinct in them to flirt with me. It's disturbing. It's weird. I'm not talking about it to brag about my innate hotness. I don't have innate hotness. I'm incredibly awkward around women. The more I like them, the more I clam up. So we've never quite figured out the reason behind the need for these girls to come on to me. At five, it's cute. At fifteen, it's sorta creepy. It's flattering, but creepy.
Even in my relationships, I've ended up dating younger women. At most, it's been a 6 year difference. And, at the time, it was weird because I was in my wee early twenties and she in her teens. It was 18, but still. People look at the college kid dating the high school in a weird way. Now it's different. "You're both in your twenties! It's cool now!" I know it's the whole taboo and all, but, whatever.
So, I guess, given my track record, it's only natural that I'm attracted to someone younger than me again. I mentioned her before, eons ago. Super cute. Video game geek. Always good. And, since I'm so bad at this, I can't tell if there's any interest from her, but I figure, as many of the horribly dirty things I've said about her that she's heard, and she still attacked with me a hug proclaiming how much she missed me, it can't be all bad. Can it?
The only problem is, the one person who could find out for me, seems unwilling to let me give it a chance. Why she's like that, I have no idea. I must woo her to my side. I must get more of those hugs for myself. It was nice. I liked it.
I've lost the point of my story.
Girls are good.
Anarchy Is Yule
Comp CD for a friend's boyfriend. I couldn't tell if he liked it or not. Oh well. I try.
1. O FORTUNA - BERLIN RADIO SYMPHONY ORCHESTRA
2. I BELIEVE IN A THING CALLED LOVE - THE DARKNESS
3. LITHIUM - NIRVANA
4. DORA MAE’S FUNERAL - JEFF BEAL
5. SONG TO THE SIREN - THIS MORTAL COIL
6. INTRODUCTION (TITLES) - DANNY ELFMAN
7. MORE THAN THIS - ROXY MUSIC
8. NOTHING ELSE MATTERS - APOCALYPTICA
9. GOOD LIFE - FRANCIS DUNNERY
10. BACH STREET PRELUDE - VANESSA MAE
11. BIG YELLOW TAXI - JONI MITCHELL
12. OOH LA LA - THE FACES
13. SACRIFICE - CHRISTOPHE BECK
14. ADIEMUS - ADIEMUS
15. SEA OF LOVE - CAT POWER
16. UNTITLED
17. IF YOU’RE FEELING SINISTER - BELLE & SEBASTIAN
18. EINE KLEINE NACTMUSIK - MOZART, WOLFGANG AMADEUS
19. PARAPPA’S LIVE RAP - PARAPPA THE RAPPER
Ding Dong.
Tired.
Have a hard time figuring out what to write here. Updated my little side bar to show you what I've been reading. I'm having a wicked hard time trying to get into the idea of reading anything.
But Gyo was fun. It's a manga. And anyone who knows me realizes it takes a major feat to get me to read manga. But it's by the author who did Uzumaki, which was some DAMN fine horror writing. Gyo seems to be just as promising, granted with a silly premise about walking fish. But it quickly becomes a very cool idea.
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